No, really. I literally woke up Thursday morning thinking, "Oh dear God, help me through this stupid, mushy holiday." Little did I know that he would actually give me quite a big distraction. I also didn't know that on Valentines Day of all days I would experience "love at first sight" for the third time in my life.
I really cannot go into detail about things here. Maybe one day in the far off future I will be able to disclose the details of what I can only describe as a 4 day emotional roller coaster that made me want to throw up and did make me cry. In fact I'm still crying because they haven't raised the bar for me to get out yet but, if I'm honest, I'm not sure I'm ready to get out and walk away.
I know most of you are probably scratching your head trying to crack the code and I'm really sorry that I cannot explain better. I know you're now probably thinking, "Well, why write a stinkin post about something you can't write a post about?" I asked myself the same thing, but there are some of you out there who honestly do care about our family and actually pray for us... that is why I am writing this.
If that last sentence described you, here is what you can pray for:
- For our peace in God's plan for our family. That we would continue to trust him completely and believe that he is good and loving even when we are hurt.
- For God to give us wisdom as we continue with our adoption.
- That God will continue to provide what we need financially for our adoption.
- For us to have grace and strength.
- For three individuals that we care deeply for... that God's perfect will will be done in their lives and that they will feel the love of the Father.
- For the Indian government and adoption officials... that God would move on their hearts and that they would act in the best interest of the orphans.
Finally, I do want to publicly praise Lance. He has been so loving and patient with me since Thursday. He has been a pillar of strength for me to cling to and I rejoice that God has given me such a wonderful man to do life with.
Well, I think that's it for today. Thank you for your prayers.
Until next time. -K
